Blessed

A week ago while I was reading the scriptures, I had the impression to ask my mission president for a blessing. It was Fast Sunday so I thought he might not be as busy as normal with meetings. I was wrong.

President Crickmore is an incredible man. He very much wanted to give me the blessing and wanted to be fasting. So even though he had just fasted, he asked me if we could fast together the very next Wednesday. I found out later that he prayed about the blessing over the three intervening days.

I asked my wife to join us so she could share in the spirit and maybe catch some of the words that I missed. It’s a good thing she was there because I got so caught up in the Spirit that I missed much of the specifics of what the President said.

I’m not going to into the words that he spoke as they are personal, but I want to share the feelings that I had. I knew that the Lord was speaking to me through the president’s voice and I had a powerful feeling of love. Many of my doubts and inadequacies disappeared as I felt this wonderful love and approbation from my Father in Heaven. At the same time many of the good memories of my life opened up in my mind, the reasons for His approbation. He is aware of everything. My wife felt it too and cried through much of the time.

The after glow of that blessing still rests with me together with a desire to forever live to be worthy of that love. Through my mission president, I came to know my Father in Heaven in a very real and deeply spiritual way. Words cannot describe Him. I can only say that I want to know Him even better.

Some of my testimony has changed from faith unto knowledge. I can testify with a surety to those who venture to read this that He lives because I felt His presence, His love.